[But it's more than that. If she really examines her feelings deep down, there's a tiny kernel of anger too. Not at Raven, or anyone in particular, but the fact that the situation has happened at all. Frequently. It's unfair, and part of her feels robbed. But these feelings are foolish, she knows. There's nothing to be done but think back on her opportunities with gratitude. She hadn't expected to experience anything like this at all, so she should be satisfied.]
[She should.]
In any case, there are reasons why I'd prefer to keep quiet about it. There are those who might worry far more than the situation warrants. Explaining my feelings on the situation forces me to reexamine it each time as well, and though I'm not heartbroken, it's still far from pleasant. As you said, I would rather move forward.
[The ship is starting to descend, and Rukia pulls away from the railing.]
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[But it's more than that. If she really examines her feelings deep down, there's a tiny kernel of anger too. Not at Raven, or anyone in particular, but the fact that the situation has happened at all. Frequently. It's unfair, and part of her feels robbed. But these feelings are foolish, she knows. There's nothing to be done but think back on her opportunities with gratitude. She hadn't expected to experience anything like this at all, so she should be satisfied.]
[She should.]
In any case, there are reasons why I'd prefer to keep quiet about it. There are those who might worry far more than the situation warrants. Explaining my feelings on the situation forces me to reexamine it each time as well, and though I'm not heartbroken, it's still far from pleasant. As you said, I would rather move forward.
[The ship is starting to descend, and Rukia pulls away from the railing.]
What brings you to Esdham in any case?