It came down to a simple fact. Sephiroth hadn't been in such an environment, which might cause such relationships to form, ever before in his lifetime. Even when he had gained for himself what he'd come to treasure as his own independence, there were a mountain of other things for him to concern himself with; missions, training, reports, PR, training. Girls just weren't immediately there at the front of such a mind set which had been basically all-career.
Maybe it might be easier to go forwards if he just accepted Terra as a beautiful mistake? The hollow chasm he felt inside of him would fade out of attention, eventually.
"I'll admit, that motivation dried up a long time ago. Too many sleepless nights at the beginning with my head full of nothing but ignorant thoughts." It was clear from Sephiroth's tone that it wasn't a very comfortable admission. He had joined the military at Esdham, in pursuit of learning more and dedicating himself in the right direction but especially now that Hera wasn't a threat any more he often questioned his role there. Sure, given the identity of the President but how the wayward Queen of Aqures Ixen really factored into all of this was still very much a mystery.
"It's all very well finding a way when we still don't seem to be able to see more than a few feet in front of our own hands."
Sephiroth fought to keep his voice low and as private as possible but the message was as clear as he could make it. Give him a purpose, give him a mission and Sephiroth would excel in most things; ask for him to find it for himself, however...
September 13th [Ales & Vincent]
Maybe it might be easier to go forwards if he just accepted Terra as a beautiful mistake? The hollow chasm he felt inside of him would fade out of attention, eventually.
"I'll admit, that motivation dried up a long time ago. Too many sleepless nights at the beginning with my head full of nothing but ignorant thoughts." It was clear from Sephiroth's tone that it wasn't a very comfortable admission. He had joined the military at Esdham, in pursuit of learning more and dedicating himself in the right direction but especially now that Hera wasn't a threat any more he often questioned his role there. Sure, given the identity of the President but how the wayward Queen of Aqures Ixen really factored into all of this was still very much a mystery.
"It's all very well finding a way when we still don't seem to be able to see more than a few feet in front of our own hands."
Sephiroth fought to keep his voice low and as private as possible but the message was as clear as he could make it. Give him a purpose, give him a mission and Sephiroth would excel in most things; ask for him to find it for himself, however...