Sephiroth looked immediately back up to Mary's face as she commented on the 'simplicity' that she perceived of his life up until the point he'd been brought to Crystallis. Pupils had retracted and it looked for a few seconds that those words had been taken with a very real offense, until it cooled as his logical thought process caught up. To remind him that she really had no way else to relate to it; he'd seen her world once, or a memory of hers from her world, he remembers the military presence there.
His life had hardly been so simple, but then wouldn't everyone be so inclined about their own life? Each man had his own mountain, to some it might seem gigantic, to others it might be a comparable molehill. Sephiroth had never been in the habit of blowing up about his own circumstances, aside from a few occasions in his adolescence which he'd left behind as he'd grown older. In some ways, Mary was right in her reasoning.
"When I arrived here-" He frowned as he thought back, indeed it was not only a matter of time but also of different circumstances as he had first recalled them. Not only had Crystal Stasis had once seen it fitting to return some of those memories to him, but even as a result of being here he'd learned more, so it were a little jarring to think back to a time he hadn't known what he did now. "-it took a long time to adjust to that physical 'step down'. But afterward, I wanted nothing but to show that I could be exactly the champion that I'd --obviously-- been brought here to be. It wasn't an expected, it was a given."
So naive that he'd been, so egotistical and confident in his role. Sephiroth looked away from Mary again, eyelids lowered once more into his lap. He seemed to shudder a little, before shaking his head.
"To defeat the Calamity...to save this World, seemed just like the next biggest challenge and I'd never failed to rise to them before.
"But things...happened, surfaced questions...correlations to old concerns, prepubescent doubts over self-purpose. I began to question exactly the mechanics that had brought me here. It felt like...I was drowning in the mundane, direction-less living each day as it came and every now and again something would come along to remind me that I really wasn't what I thought I was.
"I enlisted to Esdham, to find that purpose again. A familiar environment at least, where I could contribute best."
(sorry Mary, bit of a book <3)
His life had hardly been so simple, but then wouldn't everyone be so inclined about their own life? Each man had his own mountain, to some it might seem gigantic, to others it might be a comparable molehill. Sephiroth had never been in the habit of blowing up about his own circumstances, aside from a few occasions in his adolescence which he'd left behind as he'd grown older. In some ways, Mary was right in her reasoning.
"When I arrived here-" He frowned as he thought back, indeed it was not only a matter of time but also of different circumstances as he had first recalled them. Not only had Crystal Stasis had once seen it fitting to return some of those memories to him, but even as a result of being here he'd learned more, so it were a little jarring to think back to a time he hadn't known what he did now. "-it took a long time to adjust to that physical 'step down'. But afterward, I wanted nothing but to show that I could be exactly the champion that I'd --obviously-- been brought here to be. It wasn't an expected, it was a given."
So naive that he'd been, so egotistical and confident in his role. Sephiroth looked away from Mary again, eyelids lowered once more into his lap. He seemed to shudder a little, before shaking his head.
"To defeat the Calamity...to save this World, seemed just like the next biggest challenge and I'd never failed to rise to them before.
"But things...happened, surfaced questions...correlations to old concerns, prepubescent doubts over self-purpose. I began to question exactly the mechanics that had brought me here. It felt like...I was drowning in the mundane, direction-less living each day as it came and every now and again something would come along to remind me that I really wasn't what I thought I was.
"I enlisted to Esdham, to find that purpose again. A familiar environment at least, where I could contribute best."