Thing was, she wasn't trying to suggest that she didn't believe it might be a part of her. She just disliked long-winded monologues, much like what her Shadow was doing. It also didn't help that she never really did things by anything.
Ellana didn't turn around when the others spoke, but the way her shoulders tense at Sephiroth's, and then Duster's, words was likely very telling. "...Which is exactly why I wouldn't allow my carefree brother follow." If she had, then he'd have-
The Calamity Self doesn't let her finish that thought however, a hollow laugh escaping it's mouth. "Save your pathetic empathy," it chastised, turning on Duster with a grin that didn't belong on the young politician's face. "It was never a choice to begin with. Don't you see?"
"The moment we stepped foot in that village was the moment where naught could be taken back. Our path was set to be either the guide through the tempest of chaos... or its harbinger in the eyes of a people who would bring about their own destruction otherwise. Ah, but that's not the whole truth is it?"
"We could have left, after all. Could have told them to sod off. Though you didn't like the consequences of that action nearly as much, hm? Especially after seeing the future without us in it."
For the first time in years, Ellana wanted to scream. Yet still she held it back; throwing a fit would not accomplish anything, after all. Yet as she spoke, an odd air of guilt and sadness seemed to echo in her words. "I never denied that I didn't want this. That regardless of what I did, history would never remember me fondly. I am an elven mage, after all. And with what I did last month, I-"
"Oh, but you did. Even now you put in the air of being an equal to those in this room, when you are anything but."
"...You say this whilst bearing the mark of slavery our own people once branded one another with," she pointed out guardedly.
"And why shouldn't I? After all, we are nothing but a pawn--a slave to the whims of the people we so desperately want to save. That's why you still shed tears for the man who left you on the eve of victory when no one's looking~"
With that, Ellana snapped, and Calamity Ellana grinned. If something wasn't done soon, this could escalate rather quickly. "Shut up!"
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Ellana didn't turn around when the others spoke, but the way her shoulders tense at Sephiroth's, and then Duster's, words was likely very telling. "...Which is exactly why I wouldn't allow my carefree brother follow." If she had, then he'd have-
The Calamity Self doesn't let her finish that thought however, a hollow laugh escaping it's mouth. "Save your pathetic empathy," it chastised, turning on Duster with a grin that didn't belong on the young politician's face. "It was never a choice to begin with. Don't you see?"
"The moment we stepped foot in that village was the moment where naught could be taken back. Our path was set to be either the guide through the tempest of chaos... or its harbinger in the eyes of a people who would bring about their own destruction otherwise. Ah, but that's not the whole truth is it?"
"We could have left, after all. Could have told them to sod off. Though you didn't like the consequences of that action nearly as much, hm? Especially after seeing the future without us in it."
For the first time in years, Ellana wanted to scream. Yet still she held it back; throwing a fit would not accomplish anything, after all. Yet as she spoke, an odd air of guilt and sadness seemed to echo in her words. "I never denied that I didn't want this. That regardless of what I did, history would never remember me fondly. I am an elven mage, after all. And with what I did last month, I-"
"Oh, but you did. Even now you put in the air of being an equal to those in this room, when you are anything but."
"...You say this whilst bearing the mark of slavery our own people once branded one another with," she pointed out guardedly.
"And why shouldn't I? After all, we are nothing but a pawn--a slave to the whims of the people we so desperately want to save. That's why you still shed tears for the man who left you on the eve of victory when no one's looking~"
With that, Ellana snapped, and Calamity Ellana grinned. If something wasn't done soon, this could escalate rather quickly. "Shut up!"