He stumped first by Edna's words, both him and his the other him. It was not unusual for Edna to say what she felt but at the same time the words she said last reminded him exactly what he was forgetting. Even with their journeys both at home and here in Crystallis, there is no guanratee that every single living being could be saved. It's the truth but somewhere along the way, it became complicated and he had forgotten how important that phrase was.
He was scared of not being strong enough to protect those he held close more than death itself. Dying was a natural process. Everything will perish one day and nothing lasts forever. That's the truth but not being able to preserve those lives before their passing was always more than a little difficult. He can't help but have a bitter smile plastered across his face for Edna's comment.
"Perhaps, I am being selfish for not wanting to involve others or choosing to not let them get hurt in my stead. I know it's not the right thing to do but, I don't want to let anyone down."
That's all he could say to her really. The last statement takes a moment for him to reply to, "Yeah."
He couldn't save the world and the billions of people in it. That's just the reality of things. It's the matter of jus taking the situation into consideration and doing what he could to save as many as he could. It's something he knew as well as everyone else. Yet, of course it still bothered him. Even here, it was still painful to watch people die.
Shameful...? Was that how it came off to Lust as? Perhaps, he should have expressed himself better with her. He shook his head, "Perhaps a part of me does feel that way without knowing."
He glances at his other self from the small distance that they had between.
"Shameful huh? Is that how I seem right now to you?" in which the response is met with a small nod but no further words, "I see."
He made no room to protest the statement and looked back at Lust, "I'm aware but it doesn't change how I feel. I'll have to try harder, then won't I?"
Rather than pushing himself away or denying these words, he accepted them. It was going to be a process but he wasn't going to let himself be miserable like this forever. He had to get stronger not by himself but with everyone that he cared about. The reassurance was comforting, honestly. He looked back when he felt the hand on his shoulder. All he could do was nod. Sorey's right as well. He's here trying to stave off his insecurities so that he could accept them for what they were and become stronger with them.
"That's right. I didn't come here to just give up."
Lailah also always knew what to say with words of strong advice, reminding him that he was very much that person that wouldn't change.
His other self only looked in utter confusion as Lailah went for him instead of his other self. It looked entirely shocked just as Mikleo had seemed to catch wind of what Lailah had said. Such words could only make his face turn even more red as he looked away. On the other hand, the other Mikleo, was still stunned, though perhaps her word had touched it enough to smile briefly as took in all of her words. Given all the words that were thrown his way, Mikleo seemed like he was about to cry. Not because he was sad, but because he was slowly starting to understand why he seemed off for so long.
"We are fortunate to be surrounded by those cherish us fondly..."
"Yes."
There's nothing more for his Shadow to say really. These things that were bothering him, one by one were pushed off his chest-- his fears, his insecurities and whatever other little things that were part of him that he was pushing aside.
"What will you do now?"
It was as if the Shadow would constantly test Mikleo's resolve time and time again.
"I'll keep going. I won't succumb to the fear, nor will I doubt myself anymore. I'll overcome everything. I'll be stronger so that I can protect those I care about from here on. Even if it's scary, and even if I might waver, I won't give up."
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He was scared of not being strong enough to protect those he held close more than death itself. Dying was a natural process. Everything will perish one day and nothing lasts forever. That's the truth but not being able to preserve those lives before their passing was always more than a little difficult. He can't help but have a bitter smile plastered across his face for Edna's comment.
"Perhaps, I am being selfish for not wanting to involve others or choosing to not let them get hurt in my stead. I know it's not the right thing to do but, I don't want to let anyone down."
That's all he could say to her really. The last statement takes a moment for him to reply to, "Yeah."
He couldn't save the world and the billions of people in it. That's just the reality of things. It's the matter of jus taking the situation into consideration and doing what he could to save as many as he could. It's something he knew as well as everyone else. Yet, of course it still bothered him. Even here, it was still painful to watch people die.
Shameful...? Was that how it came off to Lust as? Perhaps, he should have expressed himself better with her. He shook his head, "Perhaps a part of me does feel that way without knowing."
He glances at his other self from the small distance that they had between.
"Shameful huh? Is that how I seem right now to you?" in which the response is met with a small nod but no further words, "I see."
He made no room to protest the statement and looked back at Lust, "I'm aware but it doesn't change how I feel. I'll have to try harder, then won't I?"
Rather than pushing himself away or denying these words, he accepted them. It was going to be a process but he wasn't going to let himself be miserable like this forever. He had to get stronger not by himself but with everyone that he cared about. The reassurance was comforting, honestly. He looked back when he felt the hand on his shoulder. All he could do was nod. Sorey's right as well. He's here trying to stave off his insecurities so that he could accept them for what they were and become stronger with them.
"That's right. I didn't come here to just give up."
Lailah also always knew what to say with words of strong advice, reminding him that he was very much that person that wouldn't change.
His other self only looked in utter confusion as Lailah went for him instead of his other self. It looked entirely shocked just as Mikleo had seemed to catch wind of what Lailah had said. Such words could only make his face turn even more red as he looked away. On the other hand, the other Mikleo, was still stunned, though perhaps her word had touched it enough to smile briefly as took in all of her words. Given all the words that were thrown his way, Mikleo seemed like he was about to cry. Not because he was sad, but because he was slowly starting to understand why he seemed off for so long.
"We are fortunate to be surrounded by those cherish us fondly..."
"Yes."
There's nothing more for his Shadow to say really. These things that were bothering him, one by one were pushed off his chest-- his fears, his insecurities and whatever other little things that were part of him that he was pushing aside.
"What will you do now?"
It was as if the Shadow would constantly test Mikleo's resolve time and time again.
"I'll keep going. I won't succumb to the fear, nor will I doubt myself anymore. I'll overcome everything. I'll be stronger so that I can protect those I care about from here on. Even if it's scary, and even if I might waver, I won't give up."