Huh… He thought he had made it clear that he did, but… apparently not.
“Yes, I did.” Their bond – had it qualified for dating? Sai never called it that, and the redhead didn’t think to use that particular label either. But then again, both of them were inexperienced with this type of bond. They could have easily missed a point… or several.
It wasn’t that he regretted the relationship. Sai had taught him… many things. About himself, as well as the ties that bound people together. It was the emotional factor that bothered Gaara the most. Their bond had never evolved beyond one-sided, according to Sai. Even when there had been times where he thought Sai might… feel something toward him…
His mood was declining even more, with these memories infiltrating his mind. He listened to Luke without saying a word, silently agreeing on a number of points he made. It was rather draining, to always try fulfilling other people’s expectations. To deny his own needs, so that he could gain their acceptance. To hide who he was, and fake normalcy, when he was anything but. It had taken him a long time to figure out his identity, and even longer still, to realize what he truly wanted to be.
“You might have secured a girlfriend instead,” he remarked quietly, in response to that last remark. Not that he hadn’t heard everything else Luke just said. But this point was light enough to address, while the other facts pertained to his past. He knew enough from what Luke had shared with him, in their previous world together.
Gaara fought against the powerful urge to turn his face away. It wasn’t that he disliked the feel of his hand caressing his cheek. But it… reminded him of someone else, and at this moment… his mind was far too restless and agitated.
“You don’t know what I am, at full extent… but you may come to realize the truth, eventually,” he replied, while lifting a hand to cover Luke’s and give him a gentle squeeze. “I can only hope that you won’t regret your decision.”
no >c only angst and pain and suffering
“Yes, I did.” Their bond – had it qualified for dating? Sai never called it that, and the redhead didn’t think to use that particular label either. But then again, both of them were inexperienced with this type of bond. They could have easily missed a point… or several.
It wasn’t that he regretted the relationship. Sai had taught him… many things. About himself, as well as the ties that bound people together. It was the emotional factor that bothered Gaara the most. Their bond had never evolved beyond one-sided, according to Sai. Even when there had been times where he thought Sai might… feel something toward him…
His mood was declining even more, with these memories infiltrating his mind. He listened to Luke without saying a word, silently agreeing on a number of points he made. It was rather draining, to always try fulfilling other people’s expectations. To deny his own needs, so that he could gain their acceptance. To hide who he was, and fake normalcy, when he was anything but. It had taken him a long time to figure out his identity, and even longer still, to realize what he truly wanted to be.
“You might have secured a girlfriend instead,” he remarked quietly, in response to that last remark. Not that he hadn’t heard everything else Luke just said. But this point was light enough to address, while the other facts pertained to his past. He knew enough from what Luke had shared with him, in their previous world together.
Gaara fought against the powerful urge to turn his face away. It wasn’t that he disliked the feel of his hand caressing his cheek. But it… reminded him of someone else, and at this moment… his mind was far too restless and agitated.
“You don’t know what I am, at full extent… but you may come to realize the truth, eventually,” he replied, while lifting a hand to cover Luke’s and give him a gentle squeeze. “I can only hope that you won’t regret your decision.”