Jawline tightening just a little, he nodded. If that was the case, he wouldn't be the one to hold things up. Looking to the side, he his eyes landed on an area. With everything he planned to say, they'd need privacy; he refused to say any of it otherwise. After leading her over to the remotely secluded area, he leaned against the wall.
Arms folded over his chest as he stared down at the ground, a heavy exhale releasing, "It's been...over a year since I left Auldrant. I don't know how much more than a year. All I know is I spent two months in the world before this one... So eleven months, right there. The world before that one, I-..."
For a split second, his expression strained. A couple of seconds passed before he continued, a faintly dark look entering his eyes, "All I know is that I was there for what felt like a long time. After...coming back, I wasn't there too much longer. Anyway, I-... never saw any of you in the first two worlds. Gaara was...there for me. I felt so alone and-!"
Quickly, he worked to lower his tone. He hadn't meant to let his voice turn so unsteady, either, "Thinking about you guys... hurt. Even so, I still did... for a long time. Especially in the first world, where I was always praying you guys wouldn't show up. I'm...glad you never did. That place was-..." One hand trembled before he tightened it into a fist, and then continued, "That doesn't mean I didn't miss you guys more and more, every single day. I never stopped missing everyone... especially you."
A strained smile was given to her before he almost...guiltily looked down, "It took me a long time to be able to think about you, without feeling like every breath took way too much effort. I still care about you, Tear... I know for a fact that... I'll always love you, even if it's not-..."
... He couldn't finish that sentence for some reason; his body was tense as he pointedly avoided her gaze.
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Jawline tightening just a little, he nodded. If that was the case, he wouldn't be the one to hold things up. Looking to the side, he his eyes landed on an area. With everything he planned to say, they'd need privacy; he refused to say any of it otherwise. After leading her over to the remotely secluded area, he leaned against the wall.
Arms folded over his chest as he stared down at the ground, a heavy exhale releasing, "It's been...over a year since I left Auldrant. I don't know how much more than a year. All I know is I spent two months in the world before this one... So eleven months, right there. The world before that one, I-..."
For a split second, his expression strained. A couple of seconds passed before he continued, a faintly dark look entering his eyes, "All I know is that I was there for what felt like a long time. After...coming back, I wasn't there too much longer. Anyway, I-... never saw any of you in the first two worlds. Gaara was...there for me. I felt so alone and-!"
Quickly, he worked to lower his tone. He hadn't meant to let his voice turn so unsteady, either, "Thinking about you guys... hurt. Even so, I still did... for a long time. Especially in the first world, where I was always praying you guys wouldn't show up. I'm...glad you never did. That place was-..." One hand trembled before he tightened it into a fist, and then continued, "That doesn't mean I didn't miss you guys more and more, every single day. I never stopped missing everyone... especially you."
A strained smile was given to her before he almost...guiltily looked down, "It took me a long time to be able to think about you, without feeling like every breath took way too much effort. I still care about you, Tear... I know for a fact that... I'll always love you, even if it's not-..."
... He couldn't finish that sentence for some reason; his body was tense as he pointedly avoided her gaze.