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melodiesoflife2016-11-16 06:17 pm
redigere) wrote in melodiesoflife2016-11-16 06:17 pm
open | can't get my mind out of those memories
Characters: Naminé and YOU!
Where: Palitutu's lab, and heading to B-06 afterwards, both OTA
When: November 17th
Summary: It's Naminé's turn to face her Calamity Self.
Warnings: Standard Kingdom Hearts angst, with lowkey mentions of manipulation and violence.
Notes: One thread for the Calamity Self encounter, please! Naminé will accept her Calamity self pretty easily, so no fighting will occur. Multiple threads for the heading home prompts are a-okay!
THE WORDS THAT HURT MY SOUL
[After Ira's confrontation with his Calamity Self, Sora had taken her aside and told her, with all the seriousness she's ever seen on his face, that she shouldn't go alone, whenever she decides to confront hers. It wasn't that hard to promise him that, even before he promised to do the same for her in exchange. She's not the one he should be worried about, after all. How could her two years possibly compare to how much he and Ira had been through? The little mentions and snatches of conversation from them are starting to build a puzzle board, the pieces of which she's realizing will tell a grim story she might not be prepared for.
Well...she supposes that's not what she should be focusing on right now. Naminé is back in Palitutu's lab, but instead of being the supporter, she is now the supported, a handful of familiar faces waiting in a half circle around them. She gives them a small smile of acknowledgement and thanks before turning to Elmina. She sets her crystal, a tiny shooting star surrounded in the swirl of its own tail, into Elmina's paws.]
Let's meet her.
[Worry is etched all over Elmina's Moogle face. She'd seen how upset Naminé had been, the first day she'd gotten here, and she doesn't know how well this encounter is going to go, if it'll go well at all. But with a soft prompt from her Hero, she gives Naminé a quick hug, the crystal squished between them, before handing the crystal over to the technicians.
The Naminé that swirls into existence beside the original immediately flees and hides under the nearest desk. Naminé moves to sit on the floor, back to back with her Shadow despite the desk being in the way. Then closes her eyes.]
Go ahead. Let it all out.
[Calamity Naminé lets out a slow breath.]
Why bother? It's not like anyone cares about me. About us. Two years. Just two years to exist, and what were we doing?
Doing everything Marluxia said.
Running away from Larxene. Getting belittled and ignored by everyone else. Sitting and drawing until our hands cramped and our crayons were nubs. Until Sora came along. And even then it was only because of our powers that he paid attention. What kind of life is that? Why were we born if only to exist like that? Why did we have to bear that burden while Kairi slept it all off and got to go home safe and sound?
[Tears start rolling down her cheeks.]
We never wanted any of that. It would've been better to not exist at all, instead of existing as her Nobody.
[Naminé turns her head and gives Sora a quiet, mournful look before looking away.]
It got better.
The next year was better? [Calamity Naminé buries her face into her knees.] You're unbelievable.
REMOVING DOUBTS FROM MY MIND
A) [After that incredibly draining ordeal, Naminé can't seem to get herself moving from her spot on the floor. She only shifts to curl her arms around Elmina when her Moogle comes to tuck her crystal back into her pocket.]
Naminé...let's go home, kupo...
B) [Back at B-06, Naminé can be found sitting outside in plain sight from the street, leaning against a tree and staring up into the sky. She's fine. She really is. It's just been a pretty long day, so...company would be nice.]
Where: Palitutu's lab, and heading to B-06 afterwards, both OTA
When: November 17th
Summary: It's Naminé's turn to face her Calamity Self.
Warnings: Standard Kingdom Hearts angst, with lowkey mentions of manipulation and violence.
Notes: One thread for the Calamity Self encounter, please! Naminé will accept her Calamity self pretty easily, so no fighting will occur. Multiple threads for the heading home prompts are a-okay!
THE WORDS THAT HURT MY SOUL
[After Ira's confrontation with his Calamity Self, Sora had taken her aside and told her, with all the seriousness she's ever seen on his face, that she shouldn't go alone, whenever she decides to confront hers. It wasn't that hard to promise him that, even before he promised to do the same for her in exchange. She's not the one he should be worried about, after all. How could her two years possibly compare to how much he and Ira had been through? The little mentions and snatches of conversation from them are starting to build a puzzle board, the pieces of which she's realizing will tell a grim story she might not be prepared for.
Well...she supposes that's not what she should be focusing on right now. Naminé is back in Palitutu's lab, but instead of being the supporter, she is now the supported, a handful of familiar faces waiting in a half circle around them. She gives them a small smile of acknowledgement and thanks before turning to Elmina. She sets her crystal, a tiny shooting star surrounded in the swirl of its own tail, into Elmina's paws.]
Let's meet her.
[Worry is etched all over Elmina's Moogle face. She'd seen how upset Naminé had been, the first day she'd gotten here, and she doesn't know how well this encounter is going to go, if it'll go well at all. But with a soft prompt from her Hero, she gives Naminé a quick hug, the crystal squished between them, before handing the crystal over to the technicians.
The Naminé that swirls into existence beside the original immediately flees and hides under the nearest desk. Naminé moves to sit on the floor, back to back with her Shadow despite the desk being in the way. Then closes her eyes.]
Go ahead. Let it all out.
[Calamity Naminé lets out a slow breath.]
Why bother? It's not like anyone cares about me. About us. Two years. Just two years to exist, and what were we doing?
Doing everything Marluxia said.
Running away from Larxene. Getting belittled and ignored by everyone else. Sitting and drawing until our hands cramped and our crayons were nubs. Until Sora came along. And even then it was only because of our powers that he paid attention. What kind of life is that? Why were we born if only to exist like that? Why did we have to bear that burden while Kairi slept it all off and got to go home safe and sound?
[Tears start rolling down her cheeks.]
We never wanted any of that. It would've been better to not exist at all, instead of existing as her Nobody.
[Naminé turns her head and gives Sora a quiet, mournful look before looking away.]
It got better.
The next year was better? [Calamity Naminé buries her face into her knees.] You're unbelievable.
REMOVING DOUBTS FROM MY MIND
A) [After that incredibly draining ordeal, Naminé can't seem to get herself moving from her spot on the floor. She only shifts to curl her arms around Elmina when her Moogle comes to tuck her crystal back into her pocket.]
Naminé...let's go home, kupo...
B) [Back at B-06, Naminé can be found sitting outside in plain sight from the street, leaning against a tree and staring up into the sky. She's fine. She really is. It's just been a pretty long day, so...company would be nice.]
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So it comes as no surprise when Naminé's Calamity self touches upon this subject. All of what's said - he's thought it too.
When Naminé turns to look at him, that's his cue.]
That's not true. That's not true at all. You have so many people who care about you - Riku, Kairi, Roxas, Ira and me. It wouldn't have mattered what your powers were, I still would have noticed you if we'd crossed paths any other way. I don't care what your powers are, it doesn't matter how you were created. The only thing that does matter is that you exist - you exist and that was enough for me and everyone else.
[He moves then, to sit next to Naminé by the desk - his shoulder brushing up against hers.]
What you did during that time it wasn't your fault, I've never blamed you for any of it. Actually, I'm grateful it was you. We might not have ever met if you hadn't. I know that all of it was hard on you, that it was hard for you and I'm sorry for that - for my part in all of it. I wish I could remember it and still hold on to everything else, maybe one day I will. I'm sorry I can't, I'm sorry you spent all your time carrying that burden alone. I'm sorry that you don't get to go on living your own life.
But I'm not sorry we met, and I'm not sorry for my part in your creation. [Because he did play a part.] I know Kairi isn't sorry for that either. It isn't fair what happened to you or Ira or Roxas and even Xion, you all should be able to live your own lives. You all deserve it. And I'm going to do everything I can to make it possible.
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He doesn't think of her as a monster or mistrusts her or anything of the like. The Heroes have just had far too many occasions where they've been taken over or corrupted or turned on each other as of late. There's the line between suspicion and diligence and his intent is good deep down.
Eventually he does speak up, his words quiet and carefully picked, but trying to be as encouraging as he can.]
You did well. When I face mine I'm going to have to remember to be as calm and understanding as you. How are you feeling?
[He has other questions on his mind, but her wellbeing comes first.]
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Damnit I misread a thing
ouo)7 i gotchor back
I'm so sorry for taking so long
no worries ♥
The ironic thing is I can't even remember what he was gonna ask about
oh nooooo if you ever remember you can have him bring it up with her anytime <3
Given the way his Shadow thread is going it might come back around
owo)b