melodiesoflife | Little dove sitting on her own

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Little dove sitting on her own

Characters: Kobato Hanato and Anyone.
Where: Aqures Ixen.
When: 6th November
Summary: Kobato is still feeling down in the dumps about her part in what happened days past.
Warning: No warnings.

Kobato had currently spent most of her time keeping to herself and trying to bottle up how she felt inside. But it always had a way of showing itself, so she did the next best thing. She tried to keep away from those she cared about. Those she considered friends in her mind. She even tried to avoid those who were new but she didn't seem to get by with that.

She soon found herself near the fire crystal once more as she quietly went to sit down away from everyone. For now all she wanted to do was be alone and try and think of ways to help people in her way to say sorry. If anyone spots her and comes over they'd notice she was alone and her moogle wasn't even around. She really was all alone for the moment.

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Cloud steeled his expression and nodded, pushing his worries from his mind. Listening to the different discussions floating around it seemed like the ones who had succumbed to illness were the ones they wound up on the opposite side of in the last incident. He had been sick himself and if things had been different he probably would have turned on everyone too.

"Yeah. It could have been me instead of you. Or anyone else. It's not like you chose to do it, right? How have you been feeling since then?"

Kobato knew in her case it wasn't the illness that had taken her, but that was something she never wanted to admit to anyone else. But she had to admit she kind of understood by what he meant. She guessed anyone could have been in her situation and anyone else could have been fighting the others. She knew it wasn't her choice, but it still made her feel bad.

"I see... I guess that is true." She had never really thought about that until now she had to admit.

It had been a very close call for Cloud, and his illness was unique to those others had. He still wasn't even sure what the black corruption on his arm was, but he couldn't help but feel like it was some sort of warning...from the future maybe? Who knows.

Cloud took a seat next to Kobato, quiet for the moment and in no rush to break the silence but he still had questions. "So...uh...what do you remember from what happened? I'm still not clear on what that moogle convinced you all to do." He wasn't upset at anyone except the moogle that caused it, but he still wanted to know WHY Tifa felt compelled to try to kill him.

She looked down at the ground. "I-In my case all my job was to do was simply show you all to where everyone was. I believe we were convinced that doing such a thing would actually help us...save us I believe... But we were all wrong."

She knew that now anyway. It still didn't make her feel better, but saying it outloud helped a little bit.

Cloud listened quietly. Part of him still wished he knew more about the details of what they were told. What if there WAS some truth to it. It didn't matter though. Kobato was feeling guilty enough for what she had done.

"The truth is a tricky thing, especially when you feel it in your heart. You just wanted to try to help all of us though, right?"

She gave a small nod. She wanted to help, just like she wanted to help heal hearts back at home. But it seems no matter what she did here she only got in the way or got involved in things that weren't helpful at all. It was disheartening.

"I wanted to... But it seems I can never be helpful."

Cloud frowned. He could understand feeling like that. When he first got into the military and learned he wasn't hot shit he had to rethink a lot of things. Both about himself and what his goals were. His goals were still the same, but the path had changed.

"I know a lot of people say 'try your best and that's enough' or 'keep trying and you'll get better' but there's no shame in admitting you're not good at something. Sometimes you need to be able to say that to yourself before you can find a new path. What is it you've been trying to do?"

She paused for a moment, all she knew she wasted to do was be of use to someone in something, but she honestly didn't have a clue as to what that something is simply because she didn't know what she could do in the first place.

"I honestly don't know... I... just want to help, but I don't know how or even what I could do."

Cloud wasn't sure what to say either. He could understand her, and his own dilemma was similar, but he had resolved to try his best. The problem is getting someone to understand that for themselves. It wasn't an easy thing to do.

"All I can suggest is to do your best and stay true to yourself. I've heard my friend Zack say something that his own teacher told him. 'Embrace your dreams'. Do what you can and believe in yourself. Everything else will follow."

She paused, listening to the words that he had to say. That was certainly an interesting thing to say if she had to be honest. But it did help her a bit in her problems.

So with a small smile she looked on over at the other. "Embrace your dreams... I think I can do that." She gave a small chuckle before looking over her should for a moment. She guessed it was starting to get dark so she could really think about heading off.

"It was very nice talking to you. You helped me a lot."

Cloud smiled, "Happy to help." He let out an internal sigh of relief. He was bumbling his way along at the end there. He's just glad he was able to make some little difference.

That moogle did this. Not just for Tifa and Sephiroth, but Kobato and the others too. He wasn't sure why, but the idea that someone just toyed with their memories and emotions just stung him worse than he expected. He couldn't just let this stand.

She gave a small bow. She really did fell better than she had done the past few days and she was thankful for that. I gave her a new thought of things that she might have never thought of before she came here.

Giving a small bow, she was grateful as she stood up. "I hope to see you around." And with that she headed off.

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